Over the years, I’ve had the privilege of holding space for so many incredible seekers. If you’ve spent any amount of time in spiritual, healing, or psychic spaces, you’ve probably bumped up against an unspoken (and sometimes very loudly spoken) expectation: the assumption that commitment and responsibility to the teacher, the container, or the group is of the utmost importance.
There is often a subtle pressure to be "loyal" or to stick around indefinitely. Sometimes this comes from an energy of wanting to “support the teacher” or the community, when really that’s not part of the agreement at all. When your path naturally veers in a different direction, or your focus shifts to other areas of life, returning can feel wrapped in an uncomfortable layer of guilt. Where does that come from?
"There is an incredibly underrated spiritual skill: the ability to reappear in a community space you left or chose to take a break from, to ask for help to or re-engage from a new vibration—with absolutely no shame."
In my spaces, the paradigm of forced consistency simply doesn’t exist. I find my own interests and creative energy to be incredibly fluid, ebbing and flowing as I grow. The structure and way that I hold space for psychic and spiritual growth has always reflected this; it is changing all the time to meet the demands of my life, my passions, and a my interest. I completely validate that exact same experience in others. This is something I’ve been working on over time in my own growth, and have consciously set out to create for others.
If you have studied with me in the past—whether recently, years ago, or in previous containers I’ve held like the Portland Psychic School or Art of the Seer Academy—I want you to know that the door is always open. You are always invited to re-engage. There has never been, and never will be, an energetic demand for “loyalty”. You are free to come and go as your spirit and life requires. After all, the point of spiritual growth and psychic study is to place you more firmly in the context of your own lived experience.
Shifting Focus is Not a Spiritual Failure
The guilt we feel when our attention moves from thing to thing is a cultural conditioning, not a spiritual truth. When we look back at some of the foundational teachers of esoteric and spiritual development, this fluid nature of human awareness wasn't just accepted—it was expected.
Rudolf Steiner argued that the ultimate goal of spiritual work is absolute individual freedom. He explicitly taught that a teacher's true task is merely to remove hindrances so that the student's spirit can enter into life in full autonomy. A true spiritual space never demands static, lifetime devotion; it honors the unique seasons of your personal growth.
George Gurdjieff centered much of his work on the reality of human attention. He noted that our attention is naturally fluid, frequently shifting between different attractors and different parts of ourselves. Gurdjieff warned against the trap of trying to maintain a false "persona" of perfect, unyielding consistency just to look good to others, noting that performing an appropriate role while your interior has moved on simply wastes your energetic capacity. True self-observation requires witnessing your shifting states with zero judgment, and allowing yourself permission to change with them.
Theosophical Teachings mirror this by emphasizing the cosmic law of periodic cycles. Just as the universe moves through phases of intense activity followed by rest and assimilation, our spiritual focus has its own macro and micro-seasons. Taking a break to live your life, integrate your tools, or explore other interests in other spaces isn't a lapse in discipline—it’s a natural phase of the cycle.
A Soft Space to Land: There is No Shame in Asking for Help
As we move deeper into our lives, our mockups, and further down our individual paths, we all continue to hit energy. We hit blocks, transitions, and heavy seasons where the landscape looks entirely different than it did before. We find ourselves revisiting old patterns in deeper ways, new obstacles, and more integrated longing.
When that happens, there is absolutely no shame in seeking out support, help, and community in different ways. Even from relationships we’ve “ended”.
It is entirely appropriate—and deeply healthy—to come back to a trusted guid, a safe harbor, and familiar teaching styles. Re-engaging isn't a sign that you "failed" or fell behind; it’s a conscious choice to re-assess who you are in present time in relationship to these tools. Sometimes, you don't need to reinvent the wheel—you just need a familiar, supportive environment and a soft space to land while you find your footing again. What’s wrong with that?
I find, for myself personally, that re-engaging tools, techniques, and concepts I thought I had already learned and “mastered” long ago is a very rich and important part of my growth. Every time I experience or teach grounding, I feel like I’m learning something new about it in present-time. This is just as true 25 years later for me as it was 6 months in.
Autonomy and Spiritual Growth doesn’t mean that as you become more adept you don’t need support and help. It means you are more discerning about it, and maybe more selective about the who, what, when, where and how. It means you get to be selective about when and how you engage. That’s a welcome change.
Honoring Your Flow: The Shift to "Pay As You Go"
To better support this radical autonomy and strip away the unnecessary shame of transience, I am moving all of my ongoing study groups in July to a "pay as you go" model.
This structure enables a flexible commitment to yourself. It allows you to participate when it feels deeply aligned and right for you, and to take a step back and rest when you need a break. Your spiritual practice should support your life, not become an energetic obligation or requirement to feel safe.
The first container I am doing this with is the Mediumship Study Group, and then following with the Clairvoyant Study Group. Complimenting these is the Orestes Project and the Spiritual F(l)ight Club. This fall, I’ll be adding in a Psychic Teacher’s Study Group, and next year I’m planning a series of on-location retreats in the US and Greece—so be on the lookout for those.
The Nuance of Commitment
While you are entirely free to weave in and out of these spaces, I do want to name the practical reality of the work we do. What I teach is a tools-based practice. Because of this, your experiences will naturally become richer the deeper you get into the tools. Some study groups have a minimum arc of information to complete the information, but these are just runways to get you to the essential information.
Sometimes, choosing to commit to yourself month over month is exactly what will facilitate a more profound, transformational outcome. Consistency builds energetic momentum. But ultimately? That choice is entirely up to you, your goals, and your current capacity.
I was visiting the island of Delos this past week in anticipation of next year’s Art of the Oracle Healing Retreat, exploring the spiritual side of Greece and Ancient Ionian Healing Techniques.
Where to Plug In This Summer
If you are feeling the call to step back into the work—whether to stretch your wings or simply to ask for a little extra support without an ounce of shame about how long you've been away—here is what is opening up in the coming months:
July Spiritual F(l)ight Club: If you are interested in a curated experience, a safely held container, and being in community with other seekers to exchange readings and healings, this "pay as you go" space is for you. Learn more here.
Mediumship Study Group Primer (Starts in July): If you have been working with the tools I teach for a while and are ready to work out-of-the-body on higher vibrational techniques and direct communication with spirit, this is your next step. (Note: Because of the depth and progression of this work, this specific primer is a fixed 5-month commitment). Learn more here.
Clairvoyant Study Group (Starts in August): If you are brand new to what I teach—or if you want a complete refresh of the foundational tools—and want to try it out for yourself, this is the perfect place to begin. It is a 20 week commitment, but that’s because it lays the tracks down for everything else. Learn more here.
Whether it’s been a week, a month, or five years since we last sat together, this is your hello back. I would love to see you and see how what I’m creating can support your next steps. You can explore all of these offerings, register, and find your next engagement space here:
📓 Journaling Prompts for Radical Autonomy
Before you decide where or how to plug back in, take a moment to look at your own energy. Use these self-exploration prompts to unpack where you might be holding onto old paradigms of obligation:
The Mirror of Consistency: Consider where you might be holding judgment toward others for not showing up "consistently" or "responsibly" in the way you think they should. Is that external judgment actually a reflection of a rigid expectation or pressure you are forcing upon yourself in relationship to others? Where could fluid engagement, “a long leash” benefit everyone involved?
Honoring Your Micro-Seasons: Look back at a time when your interest or attention naturally shifted away from a practice, project, or container. Did you allow yourself to drift freely, or did you wrap that transition in guilt? What changes if you view that transience as a natural cycle of rest and integration rather than a spiritual failure?
Meeting Yourself in Present Time: When you think about a spiritual tool or concept you haven't returned to with focus in months or years, who are you in relationship to it today? Strip away who you were when you first learned it. What does your present-time self actually need from this tool right now? Is there something you’d gain by revisiting it with fresh eyes and more life experience to bring to it?
The Vulnerability of Reappearing: How does it feel in your body to think about returning to a space or asking for help after a long break? What story is your body telling you about what it means to "need a soft space to land"? How can you give yourself permission to just show up as you are, without needing to explain your absence to someone?
For over twenty-five years, I have been driven by a single, uncompromising objective: to strip the illusion out of the unseen world and hand total energetic autuonomy back to the individual.
My work—both in high-fidelity private sessions and study groups—is to help build your own psychic capacity to interface with your lived experience cleanly, autonomously, and without dogma using your inherent spiritual and intuitive gifts.
